For your information, I have been single for 4 months now. Show me some mercy for I am still a beginner, sifu *bow* Who would've thought an adolescent girl like me would end up single and still sturdy. I used to be that dependent girl who likes to rely everything on her boyfriend's shoulder. I trusted him with all my soul. But you know what they say, "Don't hope too much, because that too much can hurt you so much".
Enough already with the drama, let's move on. So, why don't I need that special someone? To begin with, I got back up. Read that right. "Whaddya mean by back up? You got SWAT or something?". Well, no. By back up, I meant my nearest and dearest, my own flesh and blood. And even my ex, playing the role of my best friend now. They are the only ones that are willing to stand up for me, to be familiar with me yet bear me with the way I am. No, not that bear. Accept is probably the right word. If I experienced dilemmas and obstacles, why should I fuss about it to my 'beloved boyfriend' or so they say, instead of weighing up the pros and cons of it and finding the solution? I really don't see what's the deal about that. Just imagine, exchanging views with countless friends and family members than your only 'inamorato' or 'bf' or 'toy boy'. Ops.
Tears don't fall. Why should I even fritter away by wasting my tears over someone who doesn't have a right to win me? Cliche, I know. But it's a real life fact. I could've wasted my tears on those orphans, or those abandoned parents, or that legless cat (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dHpiAO7yhFE)? That one is no joke. That cat is amazing *applause* Some might say, "Easier said than done". Yes. I feel you. I have been through all of these stumbling blocks since I was in form 2. I might lack of experiences about this, but I guarantee you, relationships don't have endings. So to whoever who stated "I know everything that you could possibly know about relationships", please look me in the eye. YOU ARE DEAD WRONG. Dear girls or maybe boys (?), don't cry. You know why? Because you look ugly when you weep. Kidding. Just say "Thank you dear sir/madam" to that fuck face and walk away like a boss. Yeah. That's how you do it.
Thereafter, no strings attached. You like that? Me too. Correction; by no strings attached, I'm not saying you can flirt with any soul you want. God no. You do that and you might end up with some Johnny Cash chasing your ass off with hopes as high as the Himalayas. Here's an info; don't give hopes randomly to boys you just met. I did that a gazillion times. I wish I never did. Back to the point. Don't you wish to befriend with, everyone? Woefully, some source didn't approve that. Guess who? See what I'm trying to state here? That pepatah melayu of 'berkawan biar seribu, berkasih biar satu' might not seem to be functioning at all. How can you 'berkawan beribu' when that 'satu' comes along and suddenly transforms into a party pooper. See what I mean?
No dough wasted. That means no money will grow wings and fly up up and away from you. You earn money. Why on earth would you spend them on someone who makes you weep every fucking day? You wasted your cash and sobbing on him/her and eventually what did you get? Nothing? Exactly. Wake up from your daydream. There's not a single soul that can give out money for free to you. Unless you, yourself. Or your folks. Spend those dough on yourself. You deserve some breaks from the heartbreaks. Now it rhymes.
What I really want to say is that I'm not ready. I'm not ready for any commitment. I'm not ready to howl my eyes out at night. I'm not ready to be yelled at. I'm not ready to brief about my personal life. I'm not ready to share predicaments. I'm not ready to open up my stigma (aib). I'm not ready to love people more than I love myself. I'm not ready. I'm just not.
So there you go. My respond on 'Why I don't need any special boyfriend'.
TEHEE!
